Triumph In Blog

Yes, I am still alive.

Over a month now with no real communication: is it over for me? Not really. I’ve been spending the last weeks since the release of ALL OF THE TIME getting up to some other stuff, trying to actually be normal alive long enough to get some new ideas. Mostly, this has been submitting more dayjob applications into the void and taking more worthless phone calls that amount to nothing; I don’t regret any of my decisions with regards to the previous year of my life, but I probably could’ve stood to quit my job either far earlier or far later. Oh well!

Even if I’m not going anywhere or doing anything with my rapidly extinguishing youth, I’m at least making some fun electronic music. That’s something. I’ve also quietly managed to develop a semi-consistent painting style, which you can see some of the results of in the GALLERY section of this website. These things will come to a confluence at some point soon, when I finish a new song I’ve been chipping away at–I’m using a sample from the PeeWee Herman soundtrack to make something kinda chiptune, and I drew a picture of Geoff Peterson for soundcloud. It’s gonna be really funny, I promise. In fact, the idea that it’s “chiptune” might not even be too accurate, and the focus of my next writing on here is going to be the idea behind square wave synths, my use of them, and how not everything is necessarily “video game nostalgia.” In other words, I will be defending my style and how I have developed it.

But there’s another major component of my life that I’ve been developing, and that’s my return to “film” “”criticism”” on letterboxd.com. I have had a personal account on there for years now, and in the last 2 months I’ve found inspiration to go back and use it more, filling in my blindspots for film. Ironically, I’m kind of doing it to get inspiration, which is kind of working the way I intended? I’ve crossed 1000 movies logged now, and my autistic ass has written a review for every single one. Now, every review prior to about 2023 is stupid and lacking in substance, as I didn’t know who I was writing for or why I was writing it, and I didn’t have any taste, and I hadn’t seen many movies or wrote much criticism. But times have changed, and now, embarrassingly, my personal letterboxd is kind of my largest and most substantial long-form writing project.

I kind of wanted to sequester my personal social media accounts away from my artwork, partially to maintain a sort of mystique but also so that I could theoretically not have to explain to my future adoring fans why I retweet schizophrenic anime freaks, rape jokes, and Iranian clerics on twitter all day. But as time goes on, it becomes more evident that privacy is a little bit of a myth, and if I want to continue making the work that I do, I may just have to face the music and admit that I used to have an ifunny account in middle school, or whatever other shit is made apparent by my longtime use of social media.

All that being said, I think I might want to include my letterboxd (and, by extension, my backloggd that I never fuckin use,) as part of the TRIUMPH IN BLACK mythos, now that it’s no longer explicitly associated with my old twitter that was killed by hacking, subterfuge, the radical left, and the woke mob, et. al. Someday, this may happen, and I may even like to back up my 1100 reviews onto this website, but that will take a lot of effort. So for now, I’ll say it’s a soft green light on operation TRIUMPH IN BOXD.

So that’s my near future plan: a new song, some new writing, and maybe the declassification of my old movie reviews. I also had an idea for a youtube video I may bother to edit together, but in all things we must keep in mind the terrible certainty that I can’t hardly do shit with no damn job. 6 months of going to the gym, watching movies, and getting rejection emails is starting to drive me off the cliff of sanity, and I have to say not all of the works I have attempted in this time have been entirely worthwhile. I have a whole album of material that I just left unfinished sometime in July, and I guess I’ll need to go fix that sometime. I listened back to some of it and thought it was kind of interesting!

Here’s my gentlemen’s agreement: when I am no longer destitute, I will become more active. That seems fair, right? In the meantime, I will keep posting about movies and shit, and maybe that will become public